Yeah! self loathing! my favorite thing to do!
But serious talk right now:
Each morning I get reminded of what everyone expects of me, expects me to get a job, pay taxes find a woman and have kids, they want me to struggle to achieve mediocrity in a job I'm not interested in and enforce the same old shit society enforces on me right now, but the thing is, I don't really care, from my perspective life doesn't really matter, it's just a waste of time until you're dead, so why spend that time being fuckin' miserable? just do what you feel like doing, that's what I say, even if people say it's a bad decision if it's what you want to do then fuck what other people think and go do it, and don't let society hold you back, do not even trust in society, trust in the individual, you hold a world of possibility, so take hold of that possibility and do what you feel, as I said, life is one grand waste of time, so do with it what you like.
Much love from a happy failure, Verbank.